fuck this

So, i cant sleep, Im overthiking a lot. Its horrible and im just going nuts because of it. Remember when i told you im not depressed? well fuck that  I AM, No matter how little this thing is, it fucking bothers me. I cant handle this. I feel like my future and life are fucked. I just came to the point that I hate my self, no matter how many times i try to deny it I HATE ME. Dont see this post as a call for attention, see it more as a...self destructive note which i will regret to have written in like three years.

hey

Im not the happiest person in the world, i mean, I know that there are more problems in humanity rather than focusing on my problems but it is just that, sometimes i feel so tiny and sad that I completly forget about those who deserve better than me. And Im sorry if that is difficult for you to read, but Im just a human, I also have feelings and problems. Let me tell you something, we all have problems and no one's problems are bigger than other people problems, i mean, they are still being problems, they are still being negative and they take away your positivity. Sometimes when Im feeling sad I imagine that i have someone here next to me, and start talking to him or her. Call me crazy but thats what I do everytime. "But, HEY, you could talk to your parents you FREAK" Well let me tell you, that im so OUT OF MY MIND that i prefer talking to some non-existent PERSON rather than talking to my parents about how I feel. Call me crazy but that actually happens. Now that I think about it, Im not sad, Im lonely.

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btw my tumblr is full of the same an reapiting zayn gifs LOL
 it was just to much for my eyes sorry